A scandal that is known all throughout the world but yet the thief walks clean because of the abuse of authority built on the foundation that “cash is king.”

Arrogant men who speak as if their position of authority is ingrained in them and will not escape them.

Money looted, the rich get richer, and whoever would voice reason or seek to topple greed either get dethroned from their positions, or worst, imprisoned, murdered.

(Reasoning) Malaysians cried foul but the dark clouds continued to hover.

Remember that hope exists because apparently, it looks like nothing could be done.

Then two “sworn” enemies shook hands, embraced. Something you don’t see happening often- stuff one only finds in fiction.

People who have never voted before showed up- people who cared less about what was happening in the nation paid attention- and so people voted.

9/5/18 is a day Malaysians will remember fondly, remember proudly.

The toppling down of a 61 year ruling super power.


I’ve shun away from letting my views emerge. First because I’ve never voted and GE14 was the first time I did make one vote count. Second because the majority living in Sarawak are still pro-BN (it’s funny that they are known as the opposition now). People get heated up in political debates, friendships can grow sour and all that can happen. But i’m convicted of something Jordan Peterson talks about.

He says that, people who often reflect on historical moments- important one like during the Nazi’s in Germany, many would reflect and put themselves in the shoes of the Jews (victims) and those who helped the Jews and spoke against the government of the day (many of those who died or imprisoned doing so). But it’s funny, Peterson notes. No one comes out of this reflection and puts themselves as citizens who followed the Nazi ideology. A lot of these people were good people but they let their conscience and actions flow with the government of the day.

Reflecting on this, i’m reminded that we are all capable of evil; even the innocent quiet ones, the ones that shuts their ears, the ones that don’t do anything. We can avoid evil by taking a stand. To listen to the voice of conscience.

Malaysia- has slayed the giant. Now is the time to Rebuild.


Interstellar (not a review)

After reading (light reading really) through some reviews (not that many) and googling about the movie “Interstellar,” I finally went to watch it. I’m a big fan of the Nolan brothers (because of the Batman trilogy and Inception), so I didn’t really think much about whether to watch the movie or not. The important thing was “when.”

That “when” was Monday and it was my off day anyway.

I’m not gonna offer a review of any kind because I guess there is too many things to consider and think of. Plus I’m not a scientist and won’t do any justice speaking about the facts or the non facts of the movie.

But what the movie did for me (which a lot of movies have done as well) was, it made me think and reflect. Nothing new about this since i’m an introvert, it’s like second nature already. Anyway getting back on track…

Although I didn’t have the mind to digest the science, logic and theories embedded in the movie, I still appreciated it. My friend who was with me (who watched the movie 3 times already) was asking me, “Did you understand the movie?” I answered, “I didn’t understand it but I get it.”

Yes, I know I’m being vague in answering his question. But then that was how it felt for me. I didn’t have to understand everything to appreciate the movie. The parts that were way above my head, I just left them as just stuff I don’t understand. The stuff I thought were, “Come on! Where’s the logic in that!” I simply told myself that it was just a movie and the logic of things were in the head and mind of the creator. And the stuff I could understand, well, I resonated with. Again, a mixed bag but I enjoyed the movie. I’d probably watch it again if someone paid my ticket but I really did enjoy it. As a whole it really was a good movie.

This was the main reflection though, logic as we know informs and makes us understand. If the movie was based on logic alone we’re be bored stiff with it. Now add mystery in the mix, then you’re going somewhere. Logic informs and gives understanding, mystery draws us in and make us have seconds or probably more than that.


Regarding superheroes, we ask the wrong question when we start with personal preference of superpowers.

“If you had the chance to be a superhero, what powers would you like to have?”

Superheroes that we read and now watch in movies get pushed into their roles because of problems or crisis. It’s when you add the ingredients of ¬†Crisis and Responsibility then their superpowers become something useful.

Superpowers + Crisis + Pushed into position of Responsibility = The Birth of the Superhero.

My cracked iPad screen

Gee, it’s hard not to feel frustration fuming. Even when I consider myself a person who takes good care of things especially the ones bought with the produce of my sweat. I think that term seems irrelevant in our modern day and age but you get my drift.

(Back then to the thing I was talking about) It broke.

Just a line but an unmistakable one, that I try to brush off with laughter, with tilting, with consolation, and to some points thinking it was just one of those nightmares I would eventually wake up from.

Too bad.

It’s still there.

And yes, it’s not the end of the world, and yes I’ll eventually choke up enough money to replace the cracked screen. Mishaps like these, one could almost definitely find a solution.

You only lose money or probably some viable documents. Or pictures and apps (but if you’ve synced them in the cloud then they’d be still there). See. Nothing to it. Though I’m still in technological mourning.

But it’s different with the breath of life. When you meddle with life on a knife’s edge, I’m sorry but there’s no solution in trying to feel the physical warmth of love again.


Longing of a fulfilled life

And our search is through opening ourselves up to voices

The world, the devil, our own

And discover

Emptiness plummets

Futile, vain, unfulfilling

Another offer

In Christ

seeks to draw us a new vision

He is ruler


Dethroning of previous held views, Perspectives, Thoughts, Whatever

of a fulfilled life.


Turn away

turn towards

Jesus saviour



if you (would) want to know

Color y profundidad
Color y profundidad (Photo credit: Mad-King)

how will you know the content of my longings
the condition of the interior
the true color of my feelings
if the only thing you hear
and want to
or choose to
are the exterior layer
of words
of sentences
and make meaning
of what is only
spoken on the surface.


to calm the heart of a storm
is not through means of only
mending the seen
but to listena


t how
what seems apparent
affects the subjectivity
of ones own personality.


simple pleasures

simple pleasures in life
the permeating aroma
of beautiful
of printed words
on that flat white surface
of paper
the simple pleasures of
following the strands
of how someone had skillfully
connected words and sentences together
to conjure meaning
that warms the bed of ones heart
or sears the mind of scholars
or tickle souls in laughter
or cause tears to flow
the simple pleasures in life
with that i am happy

this isolation

Written June 2011. Where you see “[…]” are the parts I added. This poem reminds me that just a while ago everything was going wrong. And now I see the beauty of the silent love.

It takes getting used to
This isolation
This notion of being alone
This feeling that yearns

embracing the [breeze]
The empty calls that speaks affection
They are nowhere near
Just a silent reverberating fear, [this isolation]

Beside is just [me concealing the light]
No returning conversation
Just me speaking [the shadow]
When the bloom is nothing but desolation

[What was] cherished is now crashing
[Crimson] Hearts left for the burning [no more beating]
Nothing seems like it used to
Just another bitter hopeful dream [welcoming nothing]